Doing it for ME! :)

Gosh it’s been months since I’ve written a post! However, I occasionally do come on to check how everyone is doing. I have not been making much progress in my diet & exercise. I have gained back 5 lbs since….july? School & work are kiling me! I’m always tired & stressed out by the end of the day & feel like I have no energy for exercise anymore. To make it worse, I always grab the most accessible food, which are junk food and unhealthy cafeteria-like food at work. I keep telling myself every day that I’m going to “get back on the wagon,” but the next minute I go and make a horrible food decision.  My biggest fear is that  I will again end up where I started. I don’t want all my hard work to have been for nothing! I’ve not been feeling so great about myself lately

barbecue today, and lots of alcohol tonight…OH NO!!!!

uGHHHHH!! I’ve been *trying* to count my calories since the beginning of this week (something I’ve never done before!).  I usually eat about 1400 calories a day, which I think is a little too much considering that I HARDLY exercise anymore. Where the hell has my motivation gone? Seriously, when I get out of bed, it’s a mental battle over whether I should make the 20 min ride to the gym or not. And even working out at home is a struggle for me now too! CRAP CRAP CRAP! I feel like I’m slowly spiraling towards disaster and before I know it I’m going to gain ALL the weight that I worked soo hard to lose back!

 Last night I went out with girlfriends, which I havent done in a while. I had two drinks! AHH! Soo many calories, then I had a dessert. And I totally overate. I had no idea what happened yesterday but the whole day I just snapped and went crazy eating everything in sight. I really binged, ate three eggrolls, brownie, 2 scoops of ice cream and many, many other fatty things….wow. What happened to me!? Food is and has always been something I struggled with, and it always wins! Yesterday really proved that to me I had like 1 1/2 cups of passion fruit vodka, then at the bar had a vodka cranberry drink. Anyone know how many calories are in these drinks? I’m having a headache trying to figure it out. Needless to say, I went WAYYYYYYYY over my calorie limit yesterday, which is 1200-1550 calories/day. I think i consumed 3,000 calories, if not more yesterday! SHIT! How to undo this damage…………………

Hey all! I can’t believe we’re nearing the end of July already. That means only about a month of summer vacation left before I have to go back to school :(( NOOOOOOOOOO! Too soon if you ask me. And I feel like I didn’t even get anything accomplished this summer, except for working out Oh well…gotta make the most of every day.

I have not been as active on here lately because we’re in the process of moving & I’m already stressed out doing some school-related stuff already too! Also, I joined Sparkpeople! I know a lot of you on here are on SP as well. It’s SOOO LOADED with information! It’s overwhelming, so I’m still trying to navigate my way around there. If any of you are on there, add me as a buddy! My profile is:  Ess-Jay

hey buddies. Seems like everything is going wrong in my life right now. (Thankfully) the only thing that’s going great is my new lifestyle change. I love that fact that now, whenever I’m feeling depressed or down, I can just turn to exercise. It takes my mind off everything else because I’m focusing on whatever I’m doing. Also, I feel better afterwards. I am so proud of myself for committing to this new lifestyle change for the first time in my life. I see the results and feel the benefits. In so many ways it has made me a happier person. I hope you are all experiencing the positive results of exercise as well!

This has not been the best week in terms of my exercise regime. Haven’t gone as much as I should…I only went for like an hour today to the gym. Gonna watch my eating so compensate for that. Plus, yesterday I took a day off from exercising so tomorrow I am really going to work out hard at the gym!   I’m trying really hard to reach my goal weight of 105.  Some people may think that 105 is too small, but I’m only ALMOST 5′3″…so 105 still puts me in the normal BMI range.  I hope to reach 110 lbs by late August when I see my family again!

Hey! Guess what? I’ve been doing pretty good on the goals that I set for myself a few blogs ago.  I’ve been OK with the low sodium thing…still sneak in a few salty chips now & then. But the thing that’s REALLY been working wonders for me & helping me lose weight & feel great is not eating after 9pm! Now don’t get me wrong, sometimes I still have a little something after 9 if I’m really starving, but I try to keep it lite & healthy.  I never knew how much it would help, but I’ve lost 2 lbs doing this for just one week!

I’m annoyed! Went to the gym this morning looking forward to a great workout, but the second I got there I got a major attack of painful cramps! It’s my time of the month (too much info, I know), but I haven’t had cramps this bad for a while.  The cramps were so bad, I had to cut my workout short & leave early. Only got 30 mins of low-level exercise in today.  Gonna rest it out & hope the cramps go away by tomorrow.

It’s getting closer & closer to the move-in date to our new place….that means I’ll be able to get a treadmill soon!! Problem is, I have a budget on the treadmill, since we’re a little tight on $$ right now.  The MAX I can spend is $400 for a treadmill. I’ve been doing some research & I know $400 will not buy me a great treadmill.  And I know that if I want to get a great, quality treadmill I will have to spend over $1,500, but I don’t have that kind of money now.  So I’m asking for your help: Have any of you bought or used decent treadmills that cost under $400? Also, any advice on where I can get good treadmills?

 Thanks buddies!

Hey buddies. I have been exercising consistently, but have REALLLLy fallen off the wagon in terms of my diet. Like yesterday, I ate tons of white noodles with curry & binged on other greasy food all day! I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I literally just went out of control eating everything in sight!  I’m back up about 2 lbs to 120lbs now :(.  I have decided that in order to reach my goal weight & to stop sabatoging my workout efforts, I need to create new small goals in terms of my diet. 

First goal is to STOP EATING AFTER 9PM!  I ususally sleep between 11pm-midnight, so I would say 9pm is a reasonable cutoff time for me.

Second goal is to STOP EATING GREASY/DEEP FRIED FOOD!  Yes, that means absolutely no more deep fried food and no more food cooked in a lot of oil, with only olive oil being the exception.  That means no more stir-fry when the roommates make it with a lot of vegetable oil! I just have to modify & make my own stir-fries with a little olive oil or no oil at all!  When I first started really watching my diet a few months ago, I cooked stir-fry with just a little water & used no oil at all, and it still tasted great! Perhaps I should start doing that again.

Third & last goal is to watch my sodium intake! That means CUT OUT SUPER-SALTY FOOD like chips! I’ll admit that I’ve been eating lots of Tostitos chips latley, but no more of that!