Doing it for ME! :)

Even though I’ve been maintaining my weight these past few weeks & not losing, my clothes feel a little looser! yippie :D  Also, I won over the urge to stop by McDonalds on the way to work today.  Took a lot of willpower! That’s one victory for me today & I feel great! I’m proud of myself.  Overall, I did pretty good on eating, but I’m SUPER HUNGRY right now because I have not eaten since noon today because I had class, then work right away.  I hope I don’t pig out once I get home, or else all my good efforts today would have been wasted. Wish me luck with having the willpower to avoid temptations for the rest of the night!  Also, didn’t get a workout in today, but I did a lot of walking to & from work.  I’m enjoying the walk a lot more now that the weather is getting nicer.  Although I’m dreading when the weather turns HOT because I hate going out when it’s hot & humid-I usually end up a mess & yucky!

I NEED to practice more self-control because that’s what’s destroying all my weight loss efforts!

Went to the gym again today.  I battled with myself this morning-to go to the gym or to do a workout at home? In the end, I dragged myself to the gym b/c I knew that my “workouts” at home never push me as hard as the ones at the gym.  Also, I told my husband that once we moved I want to get a treadmill, & he seemed OK with the idea (for now!).  I would be soo happy though I got one. That means I don’t have to go to the gym for my workouts anymore since when I’m there I usually just hop on the treadmill, then the elliptical! I’m soo excited!

Right now I need to focus & I’m supposed to be working on my 10 pg paper due TOMORROW.  However, I can’t seem to focus at all…this happens every time! Too many things running through my head right now.  I feel like being healthy, getting fit, & losing weight is consuming me right now! Like I’ve become obsessed with it…  Is that healthy?

Finally got in a workout this morning!! Did the treadmill (tried an incline of 7-first time I tried a high incline), then elliptical, then the rowing machine.  I feel great & not so sluggish today :)  Just gotta work on my eating…

I feel myself slipping…feel like I’m back to eating every unhealthy thing I see in sight!  I don’t wanna gain that weight back! I’m feeling really discouraged & panicky right now.  Discouraged because I have not worked out for a while due to school & other stuff going on in my life, & panicky because I have exams & papers coming up & I know that means I’m not gonna make it to the gym as much in the next 2 weeks & I’ll probably have a lot more food slipups as well! NOOO! 

I’ve been thinking, once school is over in about 2 weeks I wanna read a inspriational/motivational weight-loss book.  Does anyone have a good one to reccommend? God knows I need the inspriation right now…

today was very veryyy bad food-wise for me. Was at the library all day studying so I didn’t get any workout in today

:_(     PLUS, as described in my previous blog, I ate a lot of greasy food today! I’m disappointed.  It’s a failure in terms of food today.  Can’t wait to go to the gym Tuesday morning to work it all off!! I hope I make it to the gym on Tuesday though…got a lot of school stuff to do this week.  It’s that busy time of the year again.  I pray that I will be able to keep on my diet & exercise/lifestyle during this busy next few weeks until school’s over with!!

Oh no! I totally cheated today & ate too much! I’ve been studying at the library all morning and (as what happens EVERY time I study at the library), I got hungry and grabbed a really unhealthy lunch! I had a combo meal from a Chinese place-orange chicken, lo mein, and beef with brocolli. Plus some “hot sauce” which was basically OIL with a few peppers in it!! Now I feel really gross & sick to my stomach.  Wayy too much grease.  Haven’t eaten that unhealthy in a while.  Gosh I have so much work to do now to get back on track

Thursdays are my no workout days because I’m usually busy all day & don’t have time to squeeze in a workout.  Got home & they were having some deep-fried tempura style shrimp…I looove shrimp! So of course I couldn’t resist & ate like 8 pieces of shrimp!!!

Also, I’ve noticed lately that I tend to overeat or eat unhealthy food sometimes because I feel guilty or feel pressure to eat it because I don’t want it to go to waste.  For example, if there are some (unhealthy) leftovers like deep fried chicken, and it’s been sitting there the whole day and I know it’s going to get thrown out if no one eats it, I end up eating it because I don’t want it to go to waste!! AHHH! I need to stop doing that because it sabatoges my diet, but I can’t help it because I’ve been brought up that way I guess.  I’ve always been taught to not let things go to waste…I need to get a handle on that bad habit of mine.

ughhh!!! I hate that I’m the only one in the house who’s trying to watch what I eat.  I think so far since I’ve started my weight loss journey, I’ve been doing pretty good.  However, sometimes I can’t help myself and I cave in! I mean, usually if the junk food is not in the house, I’m totally fine, but if someone BUYS the darn junk & it’s in the house, I find myself sneaking bites here & there Does anyone have any tricks on avoiding these temptation foods? Yesterday & today, I’ve ate about a handful of chips (doritos, lays, tostitos…), and then I also had some chocolate!! Hmm I’m pretty disappointed in myself.  I feel like I’ve failed the test of temptation!  I really need to get a handle on it though, because I know I cannot be successful in this journey if I’m always going to be caving into temptations!

This weekend has been a pretty bad one in terms of eating for me. I ate some cake (birthday celebrations!!), had some alcohol (birthday party!!), ate lots of BACON-which I have not had in forever, and then various other greasy, high-calore, not-healthy stuff However, I’m determined to make up for it this week by going to the gym more than usual. My plan is to get up at 5am this whole week & make it to the gym by 6 so I can get my workouts over with in the mornings.

I’ve told myself I would do this a long time ago, but waking up that early is just too hard for me! My body will not cooperate with me in the mornings! How do some of you early-morning exercisers do it!? Just getting out of bed at 5am is the hardest part for me!